#3 ~ important. big changes. future. help.
if anyone is at all interested in my life/music/wellbeing please read this:
so i came to a really big decision earlier this week. and i need your help. and im scared. but im so ridiculously excited.
next year i’m not going back to college for a 2nd year. in fact i’m not going back now. i’m dropping out. i feel like that makes me sound like some lazy retarded person, but bear with me i have reasons.
for a really long time i’ve not been happy in full-time education. i want to get out there and do life. make mistakes. buy things. make music. eat ice cream. i realised that i was using college as a stalling tactic rather than a necessity. i was using it as an excuse not to get out there and actually enjoy my life because i was too scared of what might happen. im not doing that anymore. and im still scared. like, really properly terrified but if I don’t do it now I might never do it.
so what does this mean for you? it means music. music music music. albums, eps, collaborations, film scores, videogame themes, live streamed shows…anything i can possibly get involved in. i’m going to become a musical whore. get my name out there. do anything and everything i can possibly say yes to. begin a career. more on that later.
but first, MY ALBUM.
in all honesty, i’m not sure im going to get it finished by 14th of July. I’m going to try ridiculously hard, and i will be really sad if i dont but, i lost my computer at the beginning of may, after 4 years of serving me well, and my entire album with it. wiped. unrecoverable. nothing left. i should have backed up. i know i know i know. i KNOW. i suck. but thats what happened. i panic bought a new computer. i got some new KRK rokit5 studio monitors. and a cello. not sure why i got the cello. but i’m trying frantically to rebuild the album from scratch and im tearing my hair out about it and im constantly scared i might not be good enough but i’m going to try. i promise.
back to the career path though. i need help. i need help more than ever. if im going to do this properly i need all the fucking help i can get. spread me around like a [insert really bad STD metaphor here]. help me put myself out there. i genuinely cannot do it without help and im asking, like properly asking if anyone could help me let me know. i’d appreciate it more than anything and would repay you a thousand times over if any of it helped me achieve all of the shit i want to from this massive amazing life-changing decision/horrible stupid mistake.
DISCLAIMER: im not asking for money. i have an awesome job thankyouverymuch. i’m asking for support/passing on my details to people/general good thoughts. oh and cake would be nice.
i love you all.
stu xx
#2
so today i woke up really REALLY early to get straight to work on the album.
this was me looking completely stripped and unattractive, just getting out of the shower. hello big face. on the plus side my skin felt so SMOOTH its unreal.
and now im awake at 2am making stupid noises and wishing i could get to sleep. omg lyf is hard 4 me. loving the album now though. production is sounding so clean and lovely. im quite brutal with my compressing/eqing of things. if something needs to fit into the mix i will painstakingly eq it until it absolutely fits. nothing gets past me. tomorrow im going to go over all the tracks so far and edit out any pops/clicks caused from stopping a clip on a track without fading it out. my life is exciting
on the plus side the album is going to sound like the cleanest most tightly produced awesome thing ever.
lovelovelove
- stu xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
#1
writing an album is difficult.
really fucking difficult. u_u
it didn’t used to be difficult, when i knew less about music and production and everything. i used to think it was really easy. a lot of my old stuff does sound quite good because i just didnt know any better, so i just did it all by instinct ~ whereas nowadays i want everything to have crystal clear production and be really clever and interesting and different. it’s strange how the more i know about music the harder it becomes to write because i end up trying to include EVERYTHING i’ve learned.
having said that, the album is coming along quite nicely i suppose. i’ve got 7 tracks written on the piano, and the 8th will be improvised. the tracklisting is
First Contact
Pocket Universe
The Trees
Atmospheric Pressure
IMPROVISEDPIANOPIECE
Vocals
Monolith
The Sunstarer
theyre all pretty different, although they all have some recurring themes in them, sounds that tie them all together. im quite proud of the composition its just the production that’s proving REALLY fucking difficult. i dont have the best equipment, but if i was making a purely electronic album it’d be easier because all the sounds are generated by the computer but for this album i’m mainly using live recordings manipulated electronically, which means the recordings need to be good, and my gear doesn’t always feel like cooperating when it comes to recording things properly.
i set myself a july 14th deadline to finish this album. its the first day of summer for me, i finish college, my parents go away and i want to have a big awesome release party. im just terrified that i won’t have anything finished. that’s looking ever more likely seeing as i’m running into more problems than i’m fixing with this FUCKINGLAPTOPOMGASJKDHLSKHF. i just hope this album does really well and i get rich so i can buy some proper audio equipment. guh.
i know this blog sounds really whingey and horrible and i KNOW in the end the album will probably sound fine but i guess i’m just always scared i’ve set myself too high a goal and if i fail i’ll be letting everyone down. :(
i’m sort of stuck in this stage between positive and negative. weird emotional middle-ground. basically i feel askljdhlkajhsldkfjhdgliuhglkjdhglkjshdlkvjhlckjhbdlkjhlsdkjfhlksajdhf at the moment.
Good day to you.
oh also the album is called Personal Spaces.
love from stu - xx
